she's been out with Daddy all day. Doing normal things, shopping, having lunch, talking. she knows better then to tell Him that she's horny, but she does. Like He can't tell already. Like He can't tell by the gleam in her eye and the smile she gets when He looks her way. And He loves to tease His little toy. To touch and brush and tease when no one is looking. To whisper softly the things He would do to her if they were alone. To have her in His bed. To lick and taste her pussy. To use her as she's tied to His bed.
*sigh* and she gets wet and stays that way.
Alone at home at last, she needs relief. she needs to play. But not just masterbate, she needs to feel dirty and used. she gets out her book and her vibrator. her Vaseline. Naked, she gets on the bed and turns the book to her favorite passage. she thinks about what she does and how it makes her feel.
The things she likes, so dirty, so humiliating and against the good girl she knows she should be. she feels humiliation at the way she craves being told like a child at times what she should wear as if incapable of picking out an outfit of her own. The embarrassment of the secret fulfillment she gets from being forced to wear a butt plug in public or being made to wear nipple clamps to bed. she just shakes her head, knowing that she does not understand why she craves these things, only that she needs them. And that He understands it and knows best.
Just as she knows she will be humiliated and embarrassed by what she is about to do. she will most likely bleed later and the next day and that will silently thrill her all over again. she turns to the well read page in her book where some poor slave is getting what she deserves. What she craves and what her Master has decided to reward her with. she is bound to an ottoman type thing. All holes exposed and she is used by a party of men. All holes used as they wish, indiscriminately, against her will.
This sub likes the idea of anal play. Likes the idea of anal rape, but is usually unable to take very much anal play. But as she reads, she slowly sits down onto her vibrator, she feels the violation to her ass and tries to relax as she feels the same ultimate use that she reads of. she imagines the feeling of men using her mouth and pussy and ass at the permission and guidance of her Daddy, bound and unable to struggle. she turns the vibrator up higher, the extension vibrating against her clit, the beads rotating in her ass, the erotic words filling her mind with images of rape and violation and being used as much as any slave could hope to be used. she rides the vibrator in her ass, presses the extension against her clit, closes her eyes and gives herself over the the powerful orgasm the explodes from inside her.
It's all she can take. anal play is hard for her. she cleans herself and her toy off and puts away her book, knowing she will visit it again soon.
The humiliation of what she has done is already setting in. she knows she will have to tell Daddy what she has done.

Spent the weekend with Master and had a wonderful time. Started out with Saturday. Daddy took me shopping. He bought me some sexy new boots and i bought some sexy heels to replace my fetish shoes that are on they're last leg. He's so patient and great to take me from shop to shop to find just the right ones. He also bought me a sexy ass PVC mid length skirt. i personally think it's a bit small, but I think Daddy likes the way it show off my booty. ;)
We went to the Woodshed after the shopping. (a local BDSM club) It was our first time going and i was a bit nervous, but knew i'd be safe with Him. i wore a pretty dress for Him and He let me wear my collar. my sexy new shoes completed the outfit with a pair of fishnet thigh highs. We watched for a while. A beautiful suspension, some spanking, etc. Daddy finally put me on a long barrel shaped type cushioned piece of furniture. i was laid down on it with my arms and legs hanging down. He secured my arms down and lifter my dress. it was embarrassing to be so exposed. He left several times to look at the array of floggers, paddles and crops available for His use. I was afraid he's leave me there, getting wet, trembling in fear, afraid to look around. But He was never far and never took long.
i took a punishment in that position for i don't know how long. It seemed for hours. He alternated from flogger to crop to paddle to hand and back again. i tried to stay strong. i tried not to be a pussy like the other subs who cried. But He pushes me. He seems to know just when i can't take it anymore and pushes just a little bit further. i finally couldn't contain the tears, the sniffling and it was all i could do to maintain some pride and not outright sob for everyone to see. When He finally took me off and sat down with me, i surprised myself by crying. i don't know why, but after being pushed so hard, i'm so grateful that Daddy really DOES love me and doesn't hate me that i break down and bury my face wanting to crawl inside Him for safety. He told me i did good and fingered me to give me release and in a few minutes i went to clean up in the bathroom and was ok again.
After some recovery time, we walked around and watched a demonstration of fire play. i had never seen it done before and was curious. It looked so erotic. Daddy asked if i'd like to try. i wanted to, but took a few minutes to finally tell Him. i was a bit afraid. But He held my hand as fire was applied to various spots on my chest and back. i could have shivered with delight if not still a little frightened. It was such an erotic feeling. The flames dancing on my own soft skin. Burning but not. And in a second, over and wanting more. i'm so happy Daddy let me experience it.

Daddy and i both needed sleep after such a long night. But in the morning, i went to Him and cuddled up. We talked about dreams we had and the experience the night before. i played with His cock and teased His balls. i tasted and licked and sucked. i offered my ass to Him that day. Anyone who reads my blogs knows how difficult anal sex is to me. But it had been a long time and Daddy's birthday is coming, so i was determined to give it to Him that day. After a couple tries, i was able to sit all the way down His cock and move and bounce. He then laid me down with my legs by His head and pounded my tender little ass hard. He allowed me to touch myself and as i rubbed my clit to climax, He came deep inside me. i felt every pulse of His cock empty Himself into my ass, filling it up. i was so proud to be able to give it to Him and accept His cum in my ass. And i think He was proud of His little anal slut that day.

We had some things planned and places to go. But afterwards were able to have some down time and watch a movie together. But of course, Daddy was looking for more by the time the movie finished. He pulled my blouse down and pinned my arms to the wall as He took my nipples in His mouth and teased them. He forced me upstairs and ordered me to strip. He forced Himself into my waiting pussy and pounded it doggy style making me scream and cum. He flipped me over and again fucked me hard until i came that way as well. i then sucked and stroked His cock until He came, ordering me to catch it all in my hands. He took my cum filled hands and wiped them down my tits, over my belly and thighs. i rubbed His cum onto me, relishing in being His cum slut and feeling the hot cum quickly grow cold and sticky on my skin. He ordered me to dress, leaving the cum on me for my drive home. It was sad for the weekend to end, but at least i had plenty of wonderful memories to fall asleep to. :D

Recently i had a new experience with my Master. While staying at His house, we were in His computer room. i had been instructed on what to bring, but had settled on His favorite bra and panty set and a sexy little dress that i hoped He would like to arrive at His house. He instructed me to stand and bend over a little chair He has for me in the room. He pulled my skirt up and i stood exposed for what felt like a very long time. He was lightly rubbing my pussy through my panties and i knew i was getting wet and swollen from His touch. He was doing something i did not know what while teasing me. A few soft moans and whines escaped my lips and i tries to push my pussy against His hand to feel some relief. i earned several very hards spanks at this act of selfishness. After this i fought hard to stay still.

After what seemed like forever i was instructed to remove my dress and i knelt in front of Him. i started to pleasure Him with my mouth while He was on the computer. After a while He let me know that i was on webcam and people were watching the job i was doing on Him. i had never been so embarrassed! i knew i was turning red but didn't dare stop. He instructed me several times to look up at the camera and after a time, i tried my best to look sexy and do a good job and overcome my embarrassment so as not to let Him down. It was like my greatest fears and greatest desires happening all at once. i felt truly like His property that He could use and display as He chose. But i also felt a sense of pride that He would consider me worth showing off. Luckily, He turned the camera off and i was able to accept His load with just the privacy of Him and me.

Afterwards i was rewarded with His cock inside me and some time being cuffed to the bed while His tongue and fingers worked their magic on me. He allowed me to cum repeatedly and with the use of my favorite purple toy, He enticed me to squirt like only He is able to make me do.
I'm so grateful for Master's generosity and abilities!

i've been such a dirty little slut lately. All i can think about is sucking and fucking and having Daddy use me. i spent the weekend at Daddy's and was lucky enough for Him to let me suck Him off a couple times. it felt so good to have His cock in my mouth. Licking and sucking. Bathing His balls with my tongue. i love being in my place, kneeling in front of Him. my mouth being used for His pleasure. Daddy put me against the wall and fucked my mouth again while restraining my arms. i'm learning that i really like this most vulnerable position. Only being able to breath when He allows. Doing my best to take Him down my throat all the way to His balls and letting my tongue work over His shaft and listening to His sounds of contentment all the while knowing my very lifes breath is at His control.

Twice i took His cum into my throat, savoring every drop. And yet still i could not stop licking and teasing with my tongue. His cock never even got soft with all my coaxing. i could have sucked Him all weekend if He had allowed me. i wanted to be His oral slave and His cum slut. And as much as my pussy throbbed and begged for attention, i would have been content to live in torment, never coming if only i had been used by Him all day and night. But Master is good to His little slut and rubbed or fingered me to coming several times this weekend. i just couldn't get enough and found my fingers and hands wandering to my pussy over and over again.

And here it is Monday and i'm at work. my pussy is still throbbing at the thought of His use. He ordered me to the bathroom to rub my slutty pussy until i came. As embarrassed as i was, i followed His orders and masterbated in the employee bathroom. my pussy is still puffy and wanting use even now.

i had a dream last night that didn't help matter. i was gagged with a spreader bar on my legs. i was wearing only a garter with thigh highs and heels. my hands wear attached to hook high on the wall. There was another couple there, i don't know who. i remember feeling so embarrassed and vulnerable in the dream. Dripping in excitment and anticipation.

Sometimes i don't feel like psoting here. But it's Master's wish, so i do it. Sometimes it's hard following orders. Sometimes it's not convienent. Sometimes i just don't want to. It's always so hard for me to write when i'm not motivated. All i really want right now is to cum. i'm so horny i can't even think straight. my pussy is a steady throb of need. i can't concentrate on work, i don't want to be here. i want to be in daddy's arms. i want to be getting fucked hard. i want to feel His hand on my bare ass. i want His fingers deep inside my pussy feeling every little spot that sends me flying. i want my nipple clamps punishing my tender little nipples. i want to be restrained and used until every hole is hurting and i'm covered in His cum. i want to be degraded until i cry only to be degraded some more. i want to be used like a little slut.

Writing this is making things worse. i want to reach under my desk and rub my swollen pussy. i need some relief. Lucky i'm going home later to pick up a change of clothes. i'll take care of myself then.

Yesterday was so good. Master fucked me good and hard. i love a good doggy style. He made me cum so many times. With His fingers, the purple toy, His cock. He had the purple toy in my pussy and my ass at the same time at one point. i sucked His cock at the same time. i felt like such a used little slut. i love being filled up and used by Him. i hope that one day He allows me to feel what it's like to suck one cock while getting fucked with another. i've had that fantasy a long time.

Horny, horny horny. i need it bad today. And i won't get to see Master. *sigh*

i was at Master's house yesterday. We always have fun together and did some xmas shopping together and stuff.

when we got home, Master requested that i change into my black garter belt and stockings and nothing else. i was quick to oblige. We went into the living room and He sat on the couch. i automatically went to drop to my knees in front of Him. i was hungry for His cock and wanted to suck Him. He told me to stand and told me to start touching myself. i did and started to move when instructed. not much, just a moment, but i remembered my lesson from last time and the bruises that are still healing. i climbed up on top of Him and gyrated my hips against His hard cock while kissing and touching Him. He touched and kissed and eventually put me on the couch facing back so He could slide His delicious cock into me. It felt so good i could almost have cum just from feeling Him fill me up. He fucked me hard and good like only He can. His cock pounding into me over and over and bringing me to orgasms so great.

i guess as a reward for listening to Him, He pulled out my favorite purple toy. Really something for anal play, but we've found that it can make me squirt and i get wet just from the thought of it. He fucked me with the purple toy while i was still kneeling on the couch. It felt so good i could hardely stand it. i could see between my legs and see the steady drip slowely forming a puddle on the couch under me. i could feel His whole hand was soaked and i ws embarrassed but it felt so good i could never have wanted it to stop.

After making me cum that way, He asked what i wanted. i told Him i wanted the giant dildo to be stretched. He got the dildo and the video camera as our agreement was the next tiem i got that, He would be video taping it. He plnated the dildo on the floor and instructed me to sit on it. i tried to protest that i needed lube, but He did not agree and told me to just get on it. He video taped that dildo stretching my pussy to the max and hurting me sliding in. After watchign me fuck myself on it, He stood in front of me and i sucked his cock while riding the dildo. my gods that was soooo good! i loved being filled up in both ends and being made to feel like a little slut.

He eventually took me to bed and fucked me with the giant dildo. It's always better that way. He pushes me to take more. i took it as long as i could. I climbed back on him after it was removed and rode my Daddy. (i had rode His cocl at spoem point in the living room, but forget the exact sequence of events as i'm prone to do when i'm in state)i ended by sucking Daddy with a blow job i thought was one of my best as i just wanted his cock so badly. And was careful to not spill any when He came in my mouth.

Daddy gave me everything i had been caving. He knows how to touch and tease and fuck me so well. i was horny when i got home, thinking about all we had done. i masterbated once before closing my eyes to sleep.

i don't know why. Master takes care of me, protects me, knows what's best for me. So why don't i listen? Why do i disappoint Him?

Master had a simple request of me this weekend. Dance for Daddy. i refused. He paddled me and told me again. Dance for Daddy. With tears in my eyes, i refused again. i was paddled again. i screamed it hurt so bad. He asked again. Are you going to dance for Daddy? i could only shake my head sobbing. He paddled me again. my ass was on fire. i tried to squirm away. i screamed. But still, when He asked again, Are you going to dance for Daddy?, i again shook my head no. There was no music, no one else dancing and i felt embarrassed. Why? i have no idea. Daddy likes the way i dance. He likes to see my body move.

my ass was paddled so many times it bruised and turned purple. The holes in the paddle left round marks. And i still would not dance. my collar was removed. A butt plug stuck deep in my ass. i sucked Daddy as well as i could hoping to earn favor and have Him let up on me. He didn't. i didn't deserve lenience. Daddy fucked me hard with the butt plug still in my ass. his cock felt so good and i had a powerful orgasm. Daddy then removed the butt plug and fucked my ass. i tried to fight it. He's too strong for that. Daddy gets what He wants.

my ass is still bruised. i can feel it sitting. In the shower when the water hits it. It bleeds. But i did not deserve any less. i was a bad sub and disgraced my Daddy's ownership.

Master came over last weekend and we were able to sneak in a little play. i showed Him my favorite story from the book i've been reading. It's about a sub with a rape fantasy who's Master/ Husband makes it come true. she get's used by 6 guys in all her holes and is very much a little slut. i always get off reading this story.

Master got hard reading it as well and i got to touch and play with His cock. i stripped and He played with me as well. Nothing i love more then His touch and His kisses.

i was unable to suck His cock like i like so much due to neck pain, so we had a mutual masterbation session instead. He teased my pussy with the head of His cock while i rubbed my clit. i wanted so bad for a hard fuck, but we had no time. He cut off my breath while i masterbated, which i love so much. It makes my orgasms so strong and puts me in sub space so quickly.

But the best part was when He came. i was laying on the bed masterbating. He got up over me and came all over me while i got to look up at His cock and balls and see all that wonderful cum shoot out onto my tits and stomach. It reminded me of a part of the story. He came so much and i rubbed it all into my skin feeling it go from hot and slick to cold and sticky. It coated me from neck to pussy and felt so wonderful. Master cums so much. i love feeling His cum on me.

Sometimes there jsut isn't time for a full session and Master and i need to play when we can get a minute. This weekend was one of those times. But we were able to steal a couple minutes to play in His bedroom.

Master had been in a mood all day and of course, i had as well. He had teased me a couple times, playing with my pussy until i almost came. He had smacked me and pulled my hair and was getting hard from the little tortures He was causing me. He droped His pants and had me suck His wonderful cock. He fingered my ass hard and it was all i could do to keep sucking and pleasing Him while my ass ached and my pussy throbbed. Though it's sometimes hard for me to think of new things to excite Master, i told Him of a dirty thought i had of having Him cum all over me and being made to dress with the dried cum still on me. So of course in His fashion of making my fantasies come true, that's what He did. He came enough for three guys coating my tits and back and stomach.
i pleaded that i didn't really want to walk around smelling like sex and wanted to wash it off, but He insisted that i remain that way and left me to get dressed. It was a terrible feeling, but i pulled my clothes on and remained cum covered for the rest of the day. It was such a turn on to feel the dried cum pull on my skin under my clothes. And i was proud to have Master's cum with me the rest of the day.

i'm so grateful that He makes my fantasies come true and pushed me when His little sub is tentative.

Anal play has always been something that i have a very hard time with. And of course, it's something that Master likes and even more so, likes to threaten me with. i've always felt bad that i was not a good anal slut for Him. i've tried to become better, but i always thought it was something you could handle, or it wasn't.

Lately, i've been craving anal play. i'm on some medication that relaxes my muscles and i'm finding it very pleasurable to be fingered in the ass to the point of begging Master for it. Sometimes even two fingers or His thumb. And the most surprising thing is that i'm actually coming from it.

Last night Master and i went to play pool. Afterwards we were playing in the car. after a good spanking that left my cheeks red and marked, He fingered me in my tight little ass. It felt so good and i came from it, bent over His lap in the back seat with my pants pulled down to my ankles. It feels so dirty to like the anal play and to want it so much. i'm embarrassed by it. But it also gives me the hope that i can become a good anal slut for Master so that i can please Him every way He wants.

Master is so patient and caring with me. He knows that whatever i'm lacking, i will one day want if for no reason other then to not disappoint Him.